I’ve thought about this day before.
What it would feel like. What I would say. What it would mean.
And now that it’s here… it feels quieter than I expected, but also bigger in ways I can’t fully explain.
This is my first Mother’s Day.
And more than anything, it just feels like a pause. A moment to look around at this life that feels completely different than it did a year ago.
Because if I’m being honest, this is something I’ve always dreamed of.
Ever since I was a little girl, I knew I wanted to be a mom. It was never a question for me. But as I got older and walked through some health issues, there were times I wasn’t sure if that would actually be possible. There were moments where I had to sit with the reality that it might not happen the way I always pictured… or maybe not at all.
And that changes you.
So being here now, living this, it doesn’t feel small to me. It doesn’t feel ordinary.
It feels like something I prayed for… and now I get to hold my son.
Motherhood, at least right now, feels like a lot of figuring it out as I go. Some moments feel really sweet and natural and others feel like I have no idea what I’m doing.
Honestly most days, it’s a mix of both.
And somewhere in the middle of all of that, I’m also running this business.
Answering emails during nap time.
Packing orders with a baby nearby.
Balancing something I’ve built with someone who now matters more than anything I’ve ever built.
Some days it feels seamless and other days it feels overwhelming.
But both motherhood and this business were things I dreamed about… and getting to hold both at the same time is something I don’t take lightly.
This past year has stretched me, grounded me, and changed what I care about. It’s slowed me down in ways I didn’t know I needed. And it’s given me a kind of love that doesn’t really make sense until you feel it yourself.
At Lolly & Laddie, we talk a lot about the little moments, the slow mornings, the routines, the in-between parts of life.
And now, I understand that in a completely different way.
Those moments we design for, the cozy mornings, the bedtime routines, the days that feel ordinary, those are the moments that become everything.
That’s what motherhood has shown me.
At the same time, I know Mother’s Day can feel different for everyone.
For some, it’s full and joyful. For others, it’s complicated. For some, it’s a day of waiting, or remembering, or holding both joy and grief at once.
Wherever you are in it, there’s space for you here.
I’m very grateful to be here, in this season, living something I once wasn’t sure I would get to experience, and getting to celebrate this day for the very first time.
Happy Mother’s Day, L&L Family 🤍
Madison
Owner, Lolly & Laddie